the state

I don't do it to forget about my troubles. I do it not to care about them.

There's so much comfort in the sensationfilled numbness. You understand that it really doesnt matter because for those few minutes you understand that your life is irrelevant to the universe, that your human ego is over inflated, that there are no limits because there is nothing to care about. nothing is important. being at one with everything around you. being the receptor and the interpretor without having delusions of grandeur. There is no peace or extreme calm but there is everything and nothing all at once. You sense it and you are it. You don't possess self consciousness, you are there and greatness is happening before your eyes... it always was but you were never capable of seeing it before, of accepting your true condition, the beauty of the randomness that you are, that the world experiences.

there's no one to pull the strings.Life is movement. It goes so fast and so slow that you perceive it as stillness. There is nothing but the state.